December 1, 2011 Thursday
Life…
Blessed be Your name
When the sun’s shining down on me
When the world’s all as it should be
Blessed be Your name
Blessed be Your name
On the road marked with suffering
Though there’s pain in the offering
Blessed be Your name
You give and take away
You give and take away
My heart will choose to say:
Lord, blessed be Your name
Thank you for always watching over me <3.
It all makes sense now.
Today was the day of my checkup with my a specialized doctor in gastroenterology.
These past 3 months, why I kept losing weight, felt so weak, still growing even more pale, is because I very likely might have (what my school and today’s doctor believe) some serious colonitis. Well, I have surgery tomorrow, and I may be hospitalized (or not depending on costs) (nevermind, they just called and told me how much it is, and it’s affordable! :) ), and although I have lurking thoughts about how much I digressed, how much I suffered, and how late I am in seeking help, yet I gotta say, praise God for keeping me alive. Maybe there is a much bigger reason for me to go through all this enduring~ And man, praise God, I still have the opportunity to just utilize my life after all this^_____^
It began with mild symptoms, then I couldn’t exercise very hard because of pain, and now it’s terrible to live. I won’t go into the details, but I say, bathroom at least 8-9 times a day, so much blood, and random times of mild to severe abdominal pain. Right now I just wish to recover. I wanna be able to just be able to mature, exercise, glorify God, have fun, and just live life the way God wants me to. I don’t wanna feel so helpless. heh. I’m so thankful that I can start medication tomorrow for whatever my real problem is. :T
I JUST WANNA LIVE. SDKFLJSDLDSL :p, hah, I’m pretty sure I will? X) with my strong hope.
You know, I am amazed that I had the strength to just last these 10 weeks strong. Thank you so much God. Big or small, I can’t wait to see how you’ll use my life.
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